| Location | Keyport/middletown |
| Age | 72 years |
| Date of Birth | 7/1932 |
| Date of Death | 8/2004 |
| Visitors | 212 since 25/06/2007 |
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This memorial site is being created out of tremedious love for my mother Joan Judith (Fitzpatrick) Yager.
My mother had been suffering from COPD and Emphysema for about 5 years caused by what I believe cigarette smoking. (So please don't smoke!)
She was a loving mother (mommy) and grandmother (nanny) and wanted nothing but the best for us. While she was laying there sick in bed she was worried about me and my pregnancy.
My mom passed away at 72 years young. She passed away on August 30, 2004 due to cardiac arrest.
My mom lived with me in Middletown but wanted so much to move back to Keyport.
My mom had been a waitress at the Cornucopia Restaurant in Keyport for many many years.
My mom had 4 brothers (Buddy and Sonny, Who passed away before she was born) (and Poppy and Scotty) and 3 sisters (Sis, Evie and Rita). All of her brothers and 2 sisters had passed before her.
My mom also had 4 children 2 girls, my sister Maggie and I and also had 2 boys which she had miscarried. She also had 6 grandchildren, Gary, Tabbatha, Angel Amanda, Allyssa, A.J. and shawn.
My mom was the world to me. I looked up to her for advice, I looked to her for comfort and support. Just someone who could tell me when everything looked like it was falling apart that it would be ok. When ever I was being hard on myself she would tell me of all my accomplishments I made on my own and tell me what I strong person I was. I so miss that from her. I miss seeing her cute smiling face and having someone call me a million times a day when I was either at work or running errands. I am so sorry that I didnt spend every minute with her.
Its been 3 years.
I can't believe its been 3 years already. 3 years since I saw your beautiful face :(. Today marks 3 years since I last saw you and Thursday was the 3rd anniversary of your death. Ive been such a mess this week I have been crying endlessly since Wednesday. It always hits me hard but this year its been especially bad. I miss you more and more every day. You would have thought as the years pass it would get easier but no it hasn't gotten any easier. It feels like yesterday and it seems to be getting harder at times. I miss so much about you. I keep thinking about the times when you were in the hospital I would walk out the door and do one last peak to throw you a kiss and say isnt she so cute. Sometimes you would be looking back and send me a kiss back and then other times I would just be the one doing it. I love you so very very much. There are times that Tabby and I have thought we smelled your scent on the couch where you used to sit. I know that your still with us for the fact when Allyssa was born you knew how much it meant for me to have you there and when I asked you to be there you told me you didn't know if you were going to be able to but low and behold when I was having her the motion sink was going on and off. The doctor even remarked do we have a ghost in here? At that point I thought it must be you because it was only during the time she was being born not anytime before or after.
Im really having a hard time with this. I think alot of it may come from the last time I saw you alive you were upset because I was making you do the bipap machine because you were getting lethargic. So I knew we had to get your carbon levels down and when you started waking out of it you were mad and I had to get the nurse in to remove it. And you had remarked that watch tomorrow you were going to die of a heart attack. The next day I was debating whether to go to work or just spend the day with you and I went to work because I wanted to save the time I had left in case you really needed me there and that day you really needed me there because that day you did past away by going into cardiac arrest. I so regret that I wasnt there for you at that time. I should have been. It was just that I had left work so many times and just wanted to make sure the few hours I had left I could take to be with you if I needed to. I know you had said you felt safe when I was there and I wasn't there when you died so its eating me up inside. Not a day goes by that I dont think of that. I know I was with you every day but I feel when you may have needed me most I wasnt there. I keep thinking inside of our faces being the last you say it was that stupid fast trac room and the doctors and nurses that were there. Mommy I am so very sorry. I hope that you can forgive me I didnt know/ if I did I would have been there. You know I would have been. I love you more than anything.
Your loving daughter,
Joanie
Hi Mommy
Mommy,
I hope you had a wonderful birthday in heaven. I remember when Aunt Evie passed away and I told you that she wouldn't want you to be upset. That she was probably eating off golden dishes and having a ball up there in heaven. Well I'm sure yesterday there was a big celebration in honor of your birthday. After all it would have been your 75 which would make you three quaters a century old. Im sure you were dancing the day away :). I know how you loved to dance. I so miss that. I remember as a child you were always teaching me and Maggie how to dance. And we have even been complimented on our dancing because of you. I love you so very very much. I know that your in a better place but I guess Im selfish because I wish you were here with me but in my heart you'll always be so I guess your with me where ever I go :).
I love you so very much mommy,
lots of love and hugs to the best mother there could ever be,
Your little girl forever,
Joanie
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!! I LOVE YOU!
I wanted to wish you a happy b-day. I hope you had a wonderful day!!! I wish you were here with us to celebrate your big day! LOVE YA LOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday Mommy!
Dear Mommy,
I just wanted to wish you a very happy birthday. I know this is your third birthday in heaven already. The time flys by way too fast. I still remember your last birthday that we were able to spend with you. When you were in the hospital room. You were able to have us all there. Me, Gary, Tabby, Maggie, Jay, A.J. and Shawn. So many people in such a little room but no one cared all that mattered was that we were all together and we were with you!
I love you and miss you so so much! I hope your looking down on me today because every birthday and every holiday without you is so hard but I try to get through the best way I know how.
Love you always and forever,
Joanie
Thankyou xxxxx
Thankyou for the candles Joanie they are lovely~~~ i hope you dont mind but ive added a picture to your mum's site~~ if it's not ok just delete it ....& apoligies xxxx
FOR YOU JOANIE
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A beautiful memory ~ dearer than gold,
Of a mother whose worth can never be told,
There's a place in my heart no one can fill,
I miss you mum & always will.
Another saying I found
And made me think of you.
When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.
If only........
Something I found that made me think if only......
If tears could build a stairway and Memories a lane. I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
I love and Miss you Mommy!
This was written for you mommy and it comes straight from the heart.
Missing you mommy
I know you can't hear me,
in the heavens way up above,
But I'm sending you this message,
with unconditional love.
It seems like forever,
Since you've gone away,
But your always on my mind,
and thought of every day.
What I wouldn't do,
To see your smiling face,
to hold you close to me,
to feel your warm embrace.
Theres a part of me thats empty,
A space that can't be filled,
Its only when I sleep at night,
I can dream your with me still.
I love you and miss you dearly!
Joanie Robin Wolchesky
Copyright ©2007 Joanie Robin Wolchesky
I MISS YOU NANNY
nanny i miss you so so so much... im so sorry i was there when you passed, but i wish i was...and it hurts me more and more each day that i never got the chance to say goodbye...i didnt think you would go that soon, cuz nanny you were a fighter and never gave up hope...now my world feels like its falling apart, without your touch...when i use to cry all the time, and mommy wasnt home, i would sit by you, and you made everything better...like they say the good die young...im sorry and regret never being the best grandaughter as can be...and im so sorry...everytime i look at your picture it always makes me cry...but nanny your in my heart for eternity...I MISS YOU SO MUCH...AND...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...LOVE YOUR GRANDAUGHTER TABBY
For you Joanie
I had a mum with a heart of gold,
How much i miss her can never be told,
There are millions of mum's in the world i know,
But she was mine & i loved her so. xxxxx
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